if that tickles your pickle.

Tennessee was okay. Wednesday was the soft opening event so on Tuesday we spent the entire day making sure the store was ready for all the people who were invited. It really showed me how much I still don’t know about everything. Like there was a company installing the internet and phones and they asked the manager if they could cut a small hole in a wall to run the wires. She then asked me if that would be okay. And obviously I had no idea. I ended up telling the guys that they could as long as they promised it would be small and not noticeable.

So for most of the day I just answered people’s questions and granting approval to do things. I was basically just there to make sure everything was running smoothly. Everything seemed to be under control so I spent the majority of the day putting things in my shopping cart on revolveclothing.com. We called it a day around 5:30 or 6. Since I had nothing better to do, I invited the manager and store assistants to dinner at my hotel. I thought it would be a nice gesture from me (even though I charged it all to my company card) plus Andrew told me I should try to get to know my employees. 

Wednesday was busy. We had a really good turn out for the invite only soft opening so good in fact that the internet went down so for a little while we couldn’t accept any credit cards. The manager ran to me and asked what we should do and I had no idea either. So I just found the business card the internet installation guys gave me and called them. I had to stay on the phone for like two hours with them trying to figure it out which is really annoying and something I kind of feel like I’m too important to be doing.

Andrew called me in the morning and asked me to keep him in the loop so I did just that. I literally texted him after every sale and sent him pictures of the store filled with people (but didn’t tell him about the mild glitch with the internet). Honestly, I was just trying to annoy him like he annoys me and at first he was excited and told me to keep it up, then he stopped responding lol.

I left Tennessee on Wednesday evening and made it home in time to meet Kendra for happy hour. I got cheese fries and an extra dry martini. We had so much to talk about especially my new job. She told me that I needed to take it more seriously and I can’t just get away with doing nothing because I don’t have Diana there to back me up. I was a little offended by that because Diana was never like a crutch for me.

To change the subject I said, “I heard John spent the night with you the other night.”

Kendra’s mouth twitched and she didn’t say anything for a moment. I sipped my ‘tini.

“Carly told you that?” she finally asked.

“As a matter of fact, she did. Why didn’t you want me to know?” I said.

“Do you have nothing better to talk about?” Kendra huffed, crossing her arms. “Y’all are annoying.”

“You’re annoying!” I said back automatically then felt bad. “Just kidding. What did you and John talk about?”

“I’m not fucking telling you. So you can go back and tell Carly and the two of you can talk about it?”

“Kendra,” I said in my most mature voice.

“I don’t want to talk about this. Where’s the waitress?”

And she literally refused to talk about John at all for the rest of the evening. 

After that I went to Brady’s. He was working when I got there and was being really quiet. I asked how he was and how work was going and etc and he kept giving me short, one word answers. And then I got annoyed with him and stomped to his room. Fine. If he wanted to be antisocial and weird then whatever. Fifteen minutes later, Brady came to his room.

“I’m sorry. I’m not trying to be rude, I’m just really tired,” he said.

I shrugged. “Why?”

“I’ve been working a lot more than usual recently. It’s draining.” He laid down on the bed next to me with his clothes and shoes still on.

Oh yeah. He has been working late like every single day. I’ve been so busy worrying about myself that I didn’t even notice. I suddenly had a realization: this was Kendra and John’s exact downfall. I’m such a self centered bitch sometimes. 

“Is everything okay? Why are you working so much?” I asked.

“Everything is fine. I’m just picking up someone else’s work for the time being and it kind of sucks,” Brady said. He sat up and started pulling his clothes off.
I’ve never heard Brady complain about work ever. I rarely hear him complain about anything. He’s usually so optimistic. So I knew this really must suck. 

“Oh. How long do you have to do that?” I asked.

“I don’t know. It’s fine.”

Brady got up and changed silently. I didn’t like him like this and needed to cheer him up as soon as possible.

“Wanna do something fun this weekend?” I asked excitedly when he came back to the bed.

“Mmhm. Like what?” He nuzzled my neck.

“Well, I don’t know. Whatever you want. We could stay here and smoke and fuck all weekend if that tickles your pickle,” I said.

Brady laughed. And then literally, three minutes later he was asleep.

I worked from home on Thursday. I had some reports to get to Andrew by the end of the day plus we had a big conference call with all of the sales directors, Andrew and his colleagues,  and the New York bigwigs.

Right in the middle of the conference call, I got a text from Carly that said, “Are you fucking kidding me, Reese?”

And I replied, “What?”


“Carly.” was all I said back. Obviously she was being a little bit ridiculous and I needed to reel her back in.

“Reese, I told you not to tell her. I’m very pissed at you right now.”

“I was drunk.” This wasn’t 100% true.

“She’s so mad lol. What should I do?”

“She’ll be fine. Honestly, we all knew this was coming. I don’t even know why she’s trying to hide it. Over it. Wanna get drunk this weekend?”

At this point, I heard Andrew say, “Thoughts on that, Reese? You’re being awfully quiet.”


I unmuted my phone and said, “Umm, can you actually repeat what you just said? I missed it because I was taking notes.”

“Sure!” Andrew said really cheerfully and then repeated his question. I managed to ramble a pretty decent answer. Andrew seemed impressed and took back over the conversation. 

I didn’t text Carly back until after the call was over. Andrew texted me afterwards too saying, “Nice job on the call today! Once you have a better grasp on things, I want you to participate more.” Compliments from Andrew are so few and far between that the text boosted my mood for the entire day.

I haven’t really talked to Kendra since Wednesday. I know the mature, best friendly thing to do would be to call and her let her know that I support her no matter what she decides to do with John. But I’m just like, no, fuck that. How many times has she inserted her opinion about my life in where it was unwanted and then made me feel like shit for not doing what she says? I just can’t bring myself to be the bigger person yet.


24 thoughts on “if that tickles your pickle.

  1. hopelesschris says:

    I wouldn’t talk to Kendra either. Being the mature person isn’t always fun. Give yourself some space. You’re entitled to your opinion.

    Aww, poor Brady. You should def get away for the weekend. I rented a cabin in Wisconsin once and smoked and did other really fun recreational activities out there. Like I said, tons of fun. You should look into it!



    • i feel like i’m being a petty bitch but i don’t even care anymore. ew, wisconson? not really interested in that. maybe florida or something. oh wait, but a cabin sounds cute?

  2. You seem to have the kind of relationship with your friends that is all about honesty, where you all tell each other like it is, whether it’s favorable or not, which why I think Kendra kept John a secret from you. Maybe she doesn’t want to hear what she knows you’re thinking because subconsciously she knows you’re right and actually agrees with you — but is torn between her feelings for him and rationality. That’s just my opinion.

    • yeah that sounds exactly what’s going on. i personally just think she’s being ridiculous because i tell her literally everything even if i know she’s going to scold me for it.

  3. Y says:

    Aww. You were so sweet with Brady. I think that’s exactly what he needed.

    Kendra needs to get off her freaking high horse. For someone who dishes out judgement so easily I’m surprised she’s acting this way. I’ve always thought that she spoke to you condescendingly sometimes and acted like a know it all whose relationship was superior to yours but I let it slide cos she seems mature. It could be that she’s kind of embarrassed cos she never expected this to happen to her so she feels weird talking about it. I don’t think you should talk to her. But on the other hand she is your best friend and sometimes when our friends are hurting the best thing we can do for them is let go of our pride and be there for them- no judgement or opinions. She’ll open up eventually, when she’s ready. But the important thing is to be there for her.

    • i also think she’s embarrassed and i would be kind of embarrassed if i were her too. only because she always used to brag about faithful and amazing her relationship was and how i needed to pick better guys etc and now she sees that anyone can get cheated on. not only that, she was mostly supportive about my ex, but definitely told me that cheating is a dealbreaker and got pissed at me every time i took him back.

      • Sarah S. says:

        I would just explain to her that cheating doesn’t always have to be a dealbreaker and if she wants to take him back, you’ll support her in that decision because you’re her friend. Then, you have to actually support her even if you don’t love the guy. Also, I’d encourage mild skeptism of the dude until he proves himself and encorage really good, open communication between them because if theyre gonna make their relationship work, they’re going to need to make a special effort to rebuild trust and communication. Love you Reese, you help me see some of my flaws and learn from them too!

  4. It does kind of suck that you told her, lol, but she needed to know that you knew! We all know why she’s hiding the info–she doesn’t think you guys would support her–but being that you guys are all besties, she needs to fess up and move past it! If she’s okay with dating him again, then she should be confident in that. Glad you were being attentive to Brady & kudos on keeping up with Andrew!

    Still loving your blog! Always reading in my email 🙂

    Lynella! ❤

  5. Aw. You and Brady are so cute.
    And i feel really bad for Kendra. I think she needs support, but at the same time she needs to know your feelings. I think you did the right thing ( even though I *knew* Carly was gonna be super pissed at you as I was reading it. Just tell her that you love her and will support her no matter what, buuuuuuut that you *wish* she’d just dump John and be done with him already. LOL

    • haha honestly at this point, i could care less if she takes john back. i will just be sure to rub it in her face every so often. i hope that isn’t rude lol

  6. Smack says:

    Its hard not to say anything when you know your best friend is keeping things from you. Ive been there. That being said, as you get older you’ll need your friends more and more and sometimes brutal honesty isn’t the way to go, especially when one tells you something in confidence. How would you feel if she did that to you?
    I like that you are stopping to think about how Brady is feeling and why. It’s nice to see that. You guys are good together and I think you both just have some communication stuff to work on.

  7. K says:

    I’m gonna just say this and hope you’ll take it as me trying to give you the best advice I can. Ditch the phone during the day. You need to get off the phone and pay attention to your work. It’s going to bite you in the ass if you keep it up. Shopping online when you’re supposed to be learning? You need to be more professional than that. And you may not have felt she was a crutch, but you got away with doing nothing a lot of times at your other job. A lot of your posts you would mention surfing the net when you should have been working. You need to knock that off.

    I’m not trying to be harsh. I’m saying it from experience. I was where you are. And it bit me. I was on my phone a lot. Even getting lots of work done, i was reprimanded and told it looks very unprofessional to others around me to see me texting and/or surfing the net, even if I’m able to do lots of work and text at the same time. You need to put it away and focus. I know you can do it and I want you to succeed. Please don’t think I’m saying this to be a bitch. I’m not. I’m just trying to help.

    • thank you and i know you’re right and not trying to be rude. i am addicted to my phone, i will admit that and i know i need to stop. i am trying not to have it attached to my hand as much but it is hard. 😦

  8. Quinn says:

    I think both Kendra and Carly are being rediculous. Secrets don’t make friends. They are both being immature about the situation, the way you handled talking to Kendra about Chris was perfect. I don’t think you did anything wrong, so stand your ground!

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