Reading back over my last blog post infuriated me. Like, I thought I was so tough, but reading back over it, I felt so disrespected and I’d let it happen. That’s not okay.
Brady worked late Monday and was too tired to see me on Tuesday. I was itching to talk to him, but I wanted to do it in person so I needed to wait.
On Tuesday, Scott’s wife brought the baby in for everyone to see. I heard everyone screaming and cooing from my office and when I looked out the door, I saw the tiny blonde wife and the car seat. I obviously had no interest in meeting the baby so I shut my door and turned on Demi Lovato.
A little while later, Julie knocked on my door and let herself in before I could answer.
“Hey. Aren’t you going to come say hi to Scott’s wife and see the baby?” she said with a smirk.
“I’m busy otherwise I’d totally come mingle,” I said sarcastically.
I kind of felt weird about the whole thing. Obviously anything I ever had with Scott is completely over and I’m so over it, but I just couldn’t face his wife after what went down. I just knew my guilt would show and she would totally sense what was going on. I didn’t want to risk it.
After work, I’d made plans to go to a networking event with my former coworker, Leah. I feel like networking events are just an excuse to flirt and drink so I was down. You know what I can’t stand? Leah had invited me to this networking event weeks ago and I didn’t get back to her until the day of because I was waiting to see if I’d have plans with Brady. And when I found out he was too tired to hang out, that’s when I told her I would go with her. Like I make him a priority and choose him over literally everything, but he couldn’t even sacrifice a little bit of rest to see me.
The networking event was at a ritzy hotel downtown. Leah was already there by the time I got there and she greeted me with a hug.
“I’m so glad you could make it! It’s been forever!”
We caught up for a little while, talking mostly about work.
“Andrew still won’t stop talking about you,” she revealed. “He and his friend created this fitness app and once they get the money from the investors he’s going to quit and work on the app full time. I’m surprised he hasn’t tried to recruit you to come work for him.”
Weird because I worked there literally three years ago. And as if I would ever work for Andrew again. Also, what could I possibly add to something involving fitness? But maybe Leah talked to him or something because he texted me on Wednesday morning just to say hello. We aren’t really on texting terms so it was random. I continued texting him, waiting for him to mention the fitness app, but he never did.
Brady finally invited me over on Wednesday after work. He told me that he had been feeling kind of sick the past two days so I offered to bring over soup and tea even though Brady doesn’t like tea. He didn’t have any work to do like he normally does and instead, just wanted to lay on the couch and watch tv. It was the perfect time to have a little chat.
“So here’s the thing,” I began. “I’m not okay with the Sydney thing and I’m definitely not okay with the Jill thing.”
“What Sydney and Jill thing?” Brady wanted to know.
“You know what I’m talking about.” I’m so sick of Brady pretending to be clueless to buy time. “Sydney not knowing about me and Jill calling you handsome… and your reaction. That’s just not acceptable.”
“I’m sorry. I don’t talk about you or my personal life at work. The last time I told everyone about you and we broke up, it was awkward to have to tell everyone that,” Brady explained.
“Uh, hello? Same. It’s not like you’re the only one who had to deal with that. But I’m not going to let Scott for example think I’m single.”
“I know I am! It’s so weird, sometimes I think you’re really smart, but other times I think you are incredibly dumb.”
Brady gave me a look like he wasn’t quite offended, but wanted me to keep going.
“Like, you’ve been in relationships before. You know these things aren’t right. Imagine if I’d done the same thing to you,” I continued.
“You have,” Brady said.
“Excuse me?” I was so shocked I didn’t even know what to say.
“Your boss texted you and told you he’s in love with you.” Brady’s neck was turning red and I knew he didn’t like confronting me, but he was speaking confidently because he knew he was right. “If you ask me, that’s way worse than some lady calling me handsome.”
When I didn’t say anything he continued. “Does that make you dumb too?”
“How rude! That was so long ago, I can’t believe you’re even bringing it up.”
Brady shrugged. “No ruder than you are.”
And that shut me up for a minute.
“So are you purposely trying to hurt me?” I asked.
“Of course not.”
“Jill’s gotta go. Sydney does too, but not as urgently.”
“Okay,” Brady nodded.
“And don’t just say okay to shut me up.”
“Sydney is my friend and we work together. She relies on me a lot.”
“What about me? I rely on you too!” I exclaimed.
“This is work. This is my professional life. It has nothing to do with you and you have nothing to worry about.”
“It doesn’t feel that way. Not when she’s calling you all the time during non work hours and you’re hiding to talk to her and laughing and everything.”
“You can listen to our phone calls – I’m not hiding anything. The only thing we talk about is work and Tucker.”
“So you can mention Tucker, but not me. Wow.”
After going back and forth, I was over Sydney and mainly just wanted to get Jill out of the picture. Brady promised to stop talking to her and at first I was going to physically make him text her and tell her to beat it, but I decided it was a test. If he continues talking to her, I am so fucking done. He won’t even know what hit him.
The rest of the week was super busy for me so we didn’t talk much or hang out, but we are going on vacation this week! I still need to pack. I can’t wait to tell y’all about it!