For some reason, I missed Brady a ton over the weekend. I think I was overwhelmed with everything that was going on and I needed him to help me relax. He was always so optimistic. On Sunday I texted Carly saying, “I miss Brady. Can I call him?”
She replied, “No. You both probably need space.”
Which I thought was weird. Carly was one of the main people encouraging me to reach out to him. I wonder why she suddenly decided it wasn’t a good idea. Do you think he said something to her?
Diana agreed to meet me at 9:00 AM on Monday morning – as soon as she got to the office. I didn’t know what I wanted to say, but I knew I needed to talk to her, even if it was just for career advice like a lot of people suggested.
Being in my old building made me so nostalgic. I really, really miss my old job which is exactly what I was afraid of with taking the new job. I saw a couple of the people I used to work with on my way to Diana’s office and everyone wanted to talk and know how I’m doing and if I’m coming back. I feel like it’s so fake though because for the most part no one I used to work with has kept in contact with me. So whatever.
Diana hugged me which I thought was a good sign. Diana is definitely my favorite boss I’ve ever had, but she isn’t exactly warm and fuzzy.
“How are you, Reese? How’s the new job?” she asked, getting right into it.
“Um, it’s okay. Well, I don’t like it,” I said.
“Oh?” Diana looked surprised. “Why don’t you like it?”
“Well, I like it. I just don’t like my boss,” I corrected myself.
“Mmhm.” Diana sipped her tea. I miss drinking tea with Diana in her office. “What don’t you like about your boss?”
“He just isn’t motivational or inspirational. He doesn’t make me want to do my best or move up in the company. He’s actually pretty mean.”
“Mean?” Diana repeated, looking amused almost.
“Like, I’m afraid to ask him questions. I don’t like the way he talks to me.”
“Is he truly mean or are you just being a baby?”
I gasped, offended. “He’s mean! He’s so awful.” I had to be careful with my words here. “So I’m not sure what I should do.”
“Have you tried talking to him?”
“Talking to him about what?” The thought of talking to Andrew made my skin crawl.
“Your concerns. The fact that the way he speaks to you is discouraging. You should explain to him what he needs to do to help you do succeed.”
“Okay…” I remembered that Andrew asked me that flat out one day and instead of a real answer, I just sucked up.
“He will most likely appreciate your courage to speak up rather than silently resenting him. I would.”
“And after that, if he’s still disrespectful to you, I’d sit down and really weigh your options. You can’t work in an environment where you hate your boss.”
“Yeah,” I agreed.
“Do you want to come back here?”
It’s like she read my mind.
“I mean, I would love to. But I know it’s unlikely with Whitney and everything, right?” I said.
Diana nodded. “What, am I supposed to fire her because you suddenly decide you want to come back?”
“No.” When she put it that way, I did feel a bit ridiculous. “How’s she doing?”
“She’s…adjusting. It hasn’t been a smooth transition, but she’s getting there.”
I wanted to be like, “See, she sucks! Demote her and bring me back!” But that wouldn’t be right so I nodded.
“I’m not going to let you give up on your new position that easily. You talk to him – today – and see how the rest of the week plays out. Then we can sit back down and regroup. Okay?”
I liked the sound of that. At least she’s willing to try to help me. I stayed and talked to her a little while longer and I really loved catching up with her. She’s so pretentious, but somehow so humble lol I love it.
After I left there, I rushed to the store so I could get on my noon conference call with Andrew. The whole call I thought he was being kind of nicer and not putting me (or anyone) on the spot and making us feel dumb like he usually does. I figured maybe because it was Monday he wanted to take it easy on us.
But then right before he ended the call, Andrew said, “You guys, before we hang up, I just wanted to apologize if I’ve said or done anything that offended you. It is not my intention to make anyone offended or feel uncomfortable so I am sorry for that. Please don’t hesitate to tell me if I say or do something you think is inappropriate, I won’t know unless you guys tell me.”
We were all silent then Andrew thanked us for our time and we hung up. So I feel like someone must have called HR on him recently. Maybe Ty called them for me? But it sounds like he must have offended someone else too (probably prying into their personal life). I wonder if this is the final straw. Maybe HR told him that if he gets another call he will finally get fired. So he needs to go back and cover his ass.
So I don’t know. I really don’t want to talk to him, but I think Diana is right and that I should. Should I also bring up what happened last Thursday? Or are we pretending it didn’t happen? Or maybe he was so drunk that he doesn’t even remember?
Anyway, writing this stuff is actually really, really therapeutic for me, but I think I’m going to take a week or two away from the blog. I’ve really prided myself with being super consistent with my posts (right?) and I loved the fact that I never took a hiatus like other bloggers. But I just need to focus on work, finding somewhere to live and not thinking about Brady. Feel free to contact me on Twitter (Twitter.com/hotmessReese) or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org! I promise it won’t be long and I love you guys as always! ❤