i’m sorry.

The last few weeks have been weird and depressing and I’m not really sure why. One of Brady’s friends has been staying with us because he was having problems with his live in girlfriend. So I’ve been thirdwheeling. On one of his first nights staying with us, we grilled and had people over to eat and drink. Lindsey was the only girl besides me and the guys starting being guys. Someone brought up Tia. Apparently she gets around a little bit (clearly) so they discussed that.

“[Guy who she hooked up with] says she has her hair shaved into a lightning bolt,” one of them said and they all laughed.

And then Brady said, “She changes it with her mood. Along with the jewelry.”

Why would Brady know that?

“I’m curious to see this now,” one of the guys said.

“I’m sure if you ask to see, she will send you a picture. I’m quite sure of that,” Brady said.

I gave him probably the most disgusted and unimpressed look he’s ever seen and he made a face like, “Hey, it’s not my fault.” I rolled my eyes. I don’t want my man thinking about Tia’s vagina and most certainly not seeing it either.

Another night, the three of us went out for dinner and beers. Brady’s friend (his name is Craig) wanted to bitch about his girlfriend all night and I get that Brady should take his friend’s side, but it was offensive. Craig was blaming his girlfriend for being crazy, unreasonable and selfish and Brady was agreeing with him. Finally, I said, “What did you do to her?”

They both looked at me.

“I didn’t do anything to her, Reese. I’m not here to play the blame game,” Craig said.

“But that’s exactly what you’re doing,” I said.

So now I’m just hoping Craig will leave soon. I’ve even been encouraging him to reach out to his girlfriends and apologize. I miss walking around naked when I want to and being able to come home and eat junk food. Craig works from home a lot (our home) and eats all the junk food during the day. Imagine how frustrating it is to come home from a long day of work thinking you’re going to sit in front of the tv with a pack of Oreos all night, but all the Oreos are gone. If he doesn’t leave soon, I’m probably going to kill him.

Speaking of work, Mike is back. Scott and I have gotten pretty close the past few weeks as we prepared for Mike to come back. We work together literally all day everyday either in my office or his office, or if we’re feeling adventurous, in one of the conference rooms. Monica hates it because I think she feels left out. But it seems like she’s alienating herself purposely. We’ve invited her to our work sessions and she says stuff like, “I have so much stuff to do, I can’t!”
We all have so much stuff to do, girl.
I even had lunch with Scott and his wife last week. So weird. I thought I’d be third wheeling, but I think the wife actually was. She’s a cute little blonde (obviously) who does yoga all day. She even showed up lunch in her yoga gear complete with a mat attached to her bag.

Anyway, Scott just wanted to talk about work the whole time. Like, can we have a lunch period off? We’ve all been working 12-14 hours a day so you’d think we would want to find something else to talk about for an hour.

When we got back to the office, Mike met us at the door and said, “Reese, can I talk to you for a minute?” and headed back to his office before waiting for me to say yes.

I can’t even lie, I thought Mike would confront me about going to lunch with Scott (and his wife) because that seems bad for office politics, right? Monica may have gone to him to complain, you know?
But he wanted to let me know how well I’ve been doing and to thank me for my hard work. I definitely don’t feel like I deserved it (even though I have been working hard), but there have been times I’ve busted my ass even more and no one said anything. But at least he’s noticing.
It was short lived though. On Monday morning, he sent me an email with a list of things that he wanted done, that I haven’t been doing.
“This is your priority this week. Don’t let me catch you doing anything else,” was how Mike closed the email.

So this week I’ve been busting my ass for him and avoiding Scott’s requests to work together. Obviously Mike hadn’t informed him of the list he’d given me so I guess it was supposed to be private. Although I don’t see why.

Carly was here over the weekend. We grabbed a quick brunch on Saturday morning, but that’s the only time I saw her. She spent most of her time in the suburbs wedding planning with her mom. I cannot believe she’s getting married in a few months. She actually kept changing the subject when I asked her about it at brunch which I don’t think is a good sign. I hope she isn’t getting cold feet.

I’m sorry I don’t have much to write about. Like I said, I’ve been in a weird mood, borderline depressed, anxious and super, super tired all the time. I can barely get out of bed most mornings. Hopefully the getaway Brady has planned for the end of the most helps. He’s taking me to a beach in Massachusetts for the weekend. He’s actually been working even more than I have so we definitely both need it. I miss y’all. Hopefully I feel better soon. 


12 thoughts on “i’m sorry.

    • Jess says:

      I don’t think they have slept together, but have definitely engaged in inappropriate behavior beyond the awkward prom pose hug.

      I’m so sorry, girl! I understand you don’t want to fight about it, but sweeping his inappropriate comments regarding Tia under the rug won’t make the situation go away. You may want to consider talking to him about it. I think you have a gut feeling something isn’t adding up, which may explain why you are so tired and depresses.

      You clearly love Brady very much and deserve the best, and I hope he treats you the way you deserve. You’ve had your moments, but have really grown in the past year.

      It sounds like work is going well! Mike would not have given you a personal list of things to do if he didn’t think you were capable of completing them. Keep kicking ass and doing well and everything will fall into place.

  1. kelseyxsays says:

    Tia is disgusting. I can’t even. 😖

    And Brady isn’t much better in the situation. It takes 2 to tango, and he obviously allowed inappropriate behavior to happen between the two of them. All of it, including his comments when he’s talking to his “boys,” is just unacceptable. Gross. You need to squash this issue with Brady before it manifests itself into something bigger.

  2. Gee says:

    How would Brady feel if you shared photos? Sending them is the same level of betrayal as receiving them. IMO.

    You have every right to communicate your boundaries.

    Congrats on work. But don’t forget work life balance.

  3. e says:

    why are guys so gross?????😑
    and that Tia girl is so trashy, I don’t think Brady banged her but she defo sent him nudes, or the guys sent around her nudes ..

    feel better booooo! ❤️
    is your bday this weekend or next? hi5 August babies!

  4. Delilah says:

    Hope you feel better soon!! I’m sure your weekend away will help…seems like you have been killing yourself at work.
    As for your house guest…he needs to go asap! Probably why you are so tired…you can’t relax in your own space.

  5. Carrie says:

    I loved this post actually. Yeah maybe not much happened, but that’s a regular day in most of our lives. I don’t think Bray slept with Tia, or even got pics. Guys talk – he’s probably heard it all through the guys she’s slept with.

    Why is it when a couple breaks up the guy always gets to call the girl crazy? I love that u asked what he did to her. Priceless.

  6. I’d be mad if someone had to stay with us too but I also know that I would help any of MY friends so….I feel like I’d have to put up with it just in case. That being said, I’d lay some ground rules and expect compensation for sure. Maybe he contributes to groceries since he’s fucking around with your snacks. I’d lose it if my peanut butter cups got eaten. 🙂

  7. Sarah Gwen says:

    Love this! Thanks for posting, sorry to hear you’re not feeling great, I think it totally correlates to the space invasion. Set some stronger ground rules about the space if he’s gonna continue to stay. Also, date of departure? It’s good to ask communicate about that cuz after a couple months it just gets harder and harder to ask.
    Also WTF Brady, he needs to realize he can’t talk to his dudes so misogynistically in front of you. I really doubt she’s crazy and it’s fucked up that they’re participating in that BS. A lot of women have gone crazy from people telling them they’re crazy :/

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