we will never be together again.

Hey y’all.

I’m all settled into my new apartment. It’s weird being alone all the time because I’m so used to Brady coming home and making dinner and having to clean up after myself. But now I’m back to having meals delivered and keeping my laundry in piles on the floor. I did hire a lady to come every two weeks to tidy up though.

When I moved out of Brady’s place, it was super amicable and almost like we weren’t breaking up. It felt like I had to move because his sick grandmother was moving in and we were all okay with it because it was the right thing to do. Or something. My dad even took us out for drinks after a long day’s work and we all laughed and had fun and Brady put his arm around me and kissed me. In front of my dad!

After my dad left though, we stopped texting and talking. I was beyond confused about everything and I wanted to have a reason to hate him and be done. I felt like if I hated him then it would be a lot easier to not be with him.

Randomly, one day at work, Brady texted me, “Dan’s friend from college is having an ugly sweater party if you want to come.”

And I texted back asking for the details and then I told him I’d go. I figured if he was taking the time to ask me (after not talking for that long) then he probably wanted to see me as much as I wanted to see him. So I got on Google and found the cutest ugly sweater I could find (think every color in the rainbow + sequins). The party was in the evening so I spent the day with Preston, who has been super busy with work and life. He might get engaged soon though which sucks because then I’ll literally be the only one left. But I’m happy for him.

Brady texted me around 6:30 PM saying, “Want to meet up?”

Of course I’d been waiting all day to hear from him so I quickly finished up my drink and told Preston that I needed to get going.

“So soon?” Preston asked.

I felt a bit bad for ditching him, but I was thirsty and wanted to see Brady. So I quickly hugged Preston goodbye, called an Uber and headed to the party. The place was trashed, but somewhat tame so I figured the party was dying down at that point. I spotted Brady standing in the kitchen looking at his phone. He was alone and I rushed over to him.

“Hey you,” I greeted him.

Brady looked up and gave me this look that made my heart start beating faster.

“Hey. How are you?” Brady asked. His voice was slightly hoarse which was weird, but I assumed he must have been sick or recovering from being sick. And that made me miss him even more for some reason.

“Great. I thought it would be crazier here,” I said.

“Yeah, it was,” Brady smirked. “You look cute.”

I beamed.

We stood there hanging out for a little bit. He told me about work and how he’d been invited to work on a project at the university, but wasn’t sure if he wanted to commit to it.

“It’s weird not having you around,” he admitted.

I shrugged, not about to get into the fact that he was eager to help me leave and hadn’t really made an effort to talk to me after I was gone. “Weird, yes.”

Brady looked at me and ran a hand over his hair like he was thinking and started to say something, but then Dan walked over steadily carrying three shots.

“Reese! Hey! One of my favorite drinking buddies!” he greeted me. Dan handed each of us a shot of Fireball and kept one for himself. Why do people insist on making Fireball a thing? Annoying.

We took our shot and then this girl showed up behind Dan. She was about my height, dark hair, wearing a tank top that showed off huge (real) tits and a Santa hat.

“Hey!” Brady greeted her.

“There you are,” she said. “I thought I’d lost you.”

Brady smiled and put his arm around her and said, “Never!”

The entire exchange was a little weird, but I figured he must have been pretty freaking drunk.

“This is Reese,” he introduced us, but I don’t remember him saying her name.

She shook my hand. “You’re gorgeous. And that sweater is amazing.”

I was pretty drunk by this point, but still decided to play nice. I thanked her then proceeded to tell her all about how I’d found my sweater and all the other sweaters I turned down during my shopping journey.

She and Brady continued chatting amongst themselves, acting like no one else was there. So I was forced to talk to Dan for a little while until the girl he’s seeing showed up. So then I just stood there glaring at Brady, but he didn’t even seem to notice. I was just thinking, “Who is this girl and why is he wasting his time talking to her and not me? We haven’t seen each other in forever.” But I was also drunk and really sad.

I’m not sure how much time passed, but eventually I realized that Brady and the girl had walked away. I quickly started to look around to try to find them and that’s when I spotted them walking through the front room toward the door. The girl was leading and Brady was behind her, drinking a beer. He glanced around and we made eye contact, but then he looked away like he didn’t even know me. It was so weird and uncomfortable and made my stomach drop to my feet.

It took a couple minutes for it to sink in and for me to realize what had happened. I took out my phone and texted Brady, “Did you just ditch me?”

I stared at my phone for ten minutes until he read my message and then didn’t reply. I texted him again, “What the fuck? Seriously Brady?” and still no response.

Dan swung back around, looking for Brady then he asked how my life has been. I burst into tears. I’m sure Dan probably thought I was a drunk lunatic (congrats, Dan, you’re correct), but I didn’t even care. Eventually I realized how crazy I looked so I called an Uber and went home.

Brady actually never texted me back about that. The next morning I woke up expecting him to at least apologize or blame it on the alcohol or something, but I didn’t hear from him. So then I got angry. We aren’t together, but I thought I at least deserved not to get ditched.

Anyway, I’m sorry about being MIA. I’m talking to someone else now who I shouldn’t even be talking to and he’s taking up a lot of my time and energy and I don’t know how to stop. I don’t want to talk about Brady anymore or even think about him and that’s why it took so long for me to get this post up. I’ll be back soon. 


33 thoughts on “we will never be together again.

  1. C says:

    Oh reese. I’ve been checking for posts for days. I actually had a dream you posted. I’m so sorry. This is so sad to read. I’m in a super sad boy spot tonight which doesn’t compare to yours but I’m commiserating with you.

    I’m so angry at Brady on your behalf. What a douche. I know that doesn’t help though because I imagine the feeling you have is just wanting him back and wanting things to be ok. I’m super here if you want to chat (after all, you know I will email you lol).

    I’m so so impressed by how you handled yourself with that girl and how you just ubered home. I think you are amazing and I hope things look up for you. I stand by my statement that you need better friends.

  2. Lulu says:

    I haven’t commented on here for a while but I just wanted to say that I’m happy you took the time to vent. I’m sure it must be so hard. I kissed my really good friend the other night… We were sharing a bed and I was half asleep so I’m not 100% that it wasn’t a dream, but it sucked to get rejected nonetheless…

    I guess I shared bc were all in it together and everyone seems to deal with similar issues despite different circumstances. Love from the west coast πŸ‘πŸ’—

  3. Jordan Kaylie says:

    I always just read your blog and never really comment, but I have to say all your other posts really speak to me, but this one is so relatable. One of my very good friends has been very in love from me and I finally admitted my feelings for him and he just kind of rejected me and went back to his ex that he broke up with twice because of his feelings for me. So I guess I relate to the rejection part. I hope everything works out for you and I’m sure venting helps.

    Much love and good vibes sent your way!

  4. Luita says:

    He who must not be named is an idiot and he’ll regret letting you go one day.
    I hope you are not talking to your boss or your old boss or a married man.
    I think you are vulnerable right now because you are sad, so don’t make any rush decision she right now. It’s ok to be on your own, it’s ok to be a single girl in a group of married couples. Trust me I’m there, and I’ve learned to be happy on my own and hope that one day I’ll find that man that will make me happy I waited.

  5. Sylvia D Woodring says:

    I am so sorry Reese. I read this last night, but didn’t have a chance to comment. You did not deserve that. I wish he would have just left you alone. Jerk.

  6. Jenny says:

    Over the weekend a guy that I know passed away in a tragic accident. He was only 21. The thing that struck me was how much he accomplished in his short life and how many people’s lives he touched with just a kind word/smile and the optimism and positivity he exuded. In a roundabout manner I’m saying that sometimes we all focus on things that don’t matter or are of little importance. We’re all guilty of that. Reese I think you need time for yourself. I get being lonely but don’t get yourself trapped with someone unworthy. You and Brady were toxic together and better off apart. Work of you and becoming the type of person who’s personality and inner beauty lights up a room and everyone you touch. Life is too short to focus on petty crap and materialism. Happiness and positivity. Remember that.

  7. Sara says:

    Aw, Reese! I’m sorry. Well, the most I can say is I have followed your blog for ages, almost since the start and I comment fairly frequently, so here goes. I am sorry things played out the way they did with Brady and it would have been nice if he at least had the guts to say that things were over between you. Inviting you to as party and then hanging out with another girl in front of you was a douche move, but then again, the man is truly one of the worst communicators I have heard of in a long time. You are worth more respect than how Brady treated you at the end of your relationship. I am not sure what I would advise if Brady comes crawling back which he did do when you two broke up before, but please don’t let yourself be taken for granted no matter what happens. That also extends to talking to someone you ought not to. Don’t backslide into bad habits, woman, just because you are going through and emotionally tough period. Get a hobby, get out there, make new friends and maybe cool it for at least a few weeks on romance. You were with Brady for 2-1/2 years and you should process your post relationship grief so you can move on effectively. You went through a lot with Brady and now is the time to reflect on what you did right in the relationship and what you would change in yourself in your next relationship. Also, take stock on what was NOT good and add that to the things you will not put up with the next time you get involved. Do NOT talk to any toxic men you have mentioned in your blog in the past. Add “No more toxic men in my life” to the top of your New Year’s resolution list. Hang in there, chiquita, and here’s to you having a better 2017!

  8. This post makes so many things clearer to me than they’ve been before, so thank you for writing it even though it was hard.
    Brady has always been low key into drama and this 100% shows you his little game. He asked you to that party even though he was with someone because he wanted to see what would go down. Think about all the times you got that little feeling in the back of your mind that something was shady. The chick that stole your jewelry, Jessica, etc. I guarantee Brady was stringing those girls along, making them think someone might possibly happen with them, and then they suddenly show up someplace you’re at and BOOM, you’re the crazy one. Brady pulled that shit on purpose, and now he’s doing it to you.
    Girl… you are strong, you are fun, you are worth so much more than that. Don’t become one of those girls. You’re better than that and you’re better than him. Brady is gaslighting you and he’s been doing it for a long time. Sure, you’re a little nutty, but we love you for it.
    Don’t fall for his shit.
    Now let’s go. I can’t wait to hear about the new guy πŸ™‚

    • Ashley Kay says:

      This is so true!! I’ve felt that Brady was super shady for awhile. It feels like Shady Brady has been pulling shit on Reese in an attempt to push her away and make her be the one to dump him, since he doesn’t like confrontation.

    • Anne says:

      Damn, you hit the nail on the head! I never thought about it that way, but now that you mentioned it, 100 light bulbs went off in my head! You make a very good point and I hope Reese will take all the good advice she gets.

  9. Ann says:

    Reese honey, hang in there. I know how much you’re hurting right now, but Brady did not handle things well and you didn’t deserve to be treated that way by him – no matter what. Hold your head up high, stop talking to the person you shouldn’t be talking to and be strong, because you are. You are strong, capable and loved. Never forget that.

  10. Ashley Kay says:

    I know right now it feels like the end of the world, but Shady Brady was a shitty bf to you. I think he pulled certain stunts on you just to get a reaction and make you seem crazy. As some above posted, I believe he was stringing other girls along during your relationship, or at least towards the end. I don’t believe for one second that he is as innocent as he portrayed himself to be. I don’t doubt his love for you, but I think he loved himself more. He didn’t put any effort into your relationship but expected you to change things about yourself to suit him.

    Also, is it your ex that you’re talking to? The douchebag from college? Derek, I think his name is?

  11. Lindsey says:

    I’m obviously the only one who thinks you two belong together. I’m so pathetic, but I went back and read some of your old posts. Call him. Shoot straight with him. And don’t play any more games or be selfish-put him first (before you.) It could all work out.

    • Ashley Kay says:

      Why should she put him first if he isn’t willing to do the same??? He clearly invited Reese AND this other girl to the party with the hopes of some drama going down. But Reese should put HIM first? No way!

  12. Oh Reese, I’ve also been following your blog for years and I just wanted to let you know I am so sorry this happened to you. I’m sorry he would talk about marriage and then backtrack, I’m sorry he strung you along, treated you so poorly, lived up to his Shady Brady name and so much more. Things will look better soon, just hang in there and take some time for yourself. You’re funny, kind, a little crazy, have awesome style, and a successful job. You have the perfect formula to be happy, maybe you just don’t need someone in your life right now. We love you! Keep your chin up!

  13. Waffles says:

    Hope you’re doing ok, Reese! There are so many nasty names I’d like to call Brady but I know that won’t achieve anything. I can’t believe he would parade a girl in front of you like that. Not cool at all. I understand why you’d never want to be with him after that, it’s so unbelievably disrespectful and cruel of him to behave like that. Even though you (probably) still love him, I think this ship has sailed. Worry and stress can make you ill and I would hate for that to happen to you. There’s not a lot any of us can say right now that can heal you, but take some time out from life’s stressors and take it easy. Maybe visit your parents? Take care! Big hugs. πŸ’•

  14. leo says:

    I have to say that from when he refused to put his foot down with his mother i knew he wasn’t real marriage material and you’d probably end up miserable in the long-term. He was still married to mommy and prioritizing her feelings above yours and even his own. Thats a huge red flag to me when it comes to a couples relationship since marriage is all about leave and cleave..
    I think it’s time to drop all the old guys you keep bouncing back to and move on to better things! I know it hurts, but take the time to process the hurt, go do something fun and physically exhausting like paintball or laser tag, or something else with high adrenaline that lets you take some anger out in a productive way and i guarantee you’ll feel better. That and I also listen to sermons by motivational, straight forward, raw preachers like Jonathan Shuttlesworth for example really helps me get my butt in gear and gets me re-focused on life when I get into a major funk. Could be worth a try if nothing else seems to be working – at this point what have you got to lose right? I really hope things start to look up for you soon! In the mean time please steer as clear from Brady as you can, If you have an iPhone put him on DND and change his name to “Don’t answer no matter what” and then follow through…Good luck, looking forward to another update soon ❀

  15. Jess C says:

    Sorry about everything that is going on. i thought with the negative comments, you would stop blogging. But i am glad you are back!! I’m sure it hurt to see him with someone else :/ If Brady was going to have a female friend, he shouldn’t have invited you.

  16. kelseyxsays says:

    I am so excited to see an update from you!! Honestly, you should let this whole recent encounter with Brady light the fire to move on. Clearly you dodged a MASSIVE bullet, and deep-down I think you know it too (even if it’s difficult for you to say right now). It’s okay to be sad, but don’t jump from one bad relationship to another just because it’s ‘easy’ or you’re sad. Take your time. Be single and figure out what you really want and need in a partner, so you can make more sound decisions the next time around. I truly think 2017 will be your year! ❀️

  17. e says:

    sorry you’re hurting reese, i hope you take this time for yourself and try to disconnect from trying to get meaningless attention from randoms

    sending you hugs and best wishes for this new year!

  18. Carrie says:

    Everybody is hating on Brady hard! Which i can completely understand why, of course. Pretty shitty move of him at that party. But I think I know why he did it…..think of all the times that Reese acted inappropriately in the relationship with other guys. Accepting gifts, flirting constantly, the texts, etc. I think Brady did this as a payback. To make her feel like he did. Which obviously is terrible, but now it’s time to use this as a reason to move forward. The demise of the relationship was the fault of both Reese and Brady. It’s done now, and there’s no reason to ever see each other again. Give his key back – or use it to steal Tucker real quick first lol – and say goodbye for good.

  19. Michelle says:

    Hey! Never commented before, but following since beginning. You’re awesome Reese! 😊 Kinda love you and if I was up there and not in Zona, we’d be friendlies IRL. I’m commiserating with you. Chin up girl. 😊 You’re amazing: friendly, sparkly, with lots of love to give, and hella smart. Go take the world! He- who- shall-not- be- named will see it and know he passed up the best.

  20. Mandy says:

    Miss you Reese. Always been a fan of you and Brady making it work but I don’t know anymore. Looking forward to see whats happening. Hope you are hanging in there

  21. Haley says:

    Holy hell. Found your blog a few days ago and have not stopped reading. My heart broke a little reading this last post, so not what I had hoped to get to come present day. But screw him. Sure you did some flirting but I guess I’ve gotta ask would you have acted like that had you gotten a ring? Probably (hopefully) not. I think you’re both at fault for different things but that’s how you learn and grow. You’ve definitely matured over the last couple years and now you know what you do and don’t want in a partner. It’ll be hard but you will get over him. You also dodged a bullet with that hag of a mother he has. I wanted so many times for you to look at her and say ‘ yeah this is probably why your other son eloped’ and shut her ass up but you were respectful. Drop all the guys- Devin, Andrew, Scott, Marco and any future boss! Girl do you for a while. Anyway hang in there and please keep posting!

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