I was actually happy that Preston and Carly had to work on Wednesday night because I had some things to discuss with Kendra privately. Even though she’s a judgmental asshole sometimes, I can talk about anything with her. I’ve known her forever and have told her literally everything. And she’s still friends with me so.

“So I have a confession,” I said after we were seated and the waitress delivered our martinis and turkey sliders.

“Do I even want to know?” Kendra rolled her eyes.

“Yes because you’re going to get to judge the shit out of me,” I said.


“Brady and I have been having unprotected sex.”

“Oh, Reese. That’s such a bad idea.”

“I know,” I said, taking a sip of my drink. “But I’m on birth control at least.”

“Still. Birth control isn’t 100% effective.”

“When’s the last time you and John used a condom?” I asked because I know for a fact that they don’t use them.

Kendra took a dainty bite of her burger. She knew she was caught.

“John and I haven’t used a condom in years,” she said and I gave her a raised eyebrow look.

“But when we stopped using them we both got checked for STDs and get checkups every year. And we’ve been in a committed relationship for over six years. It’s not like either of us is sleeping with other people.”

“You don’t think John has ever cheated on you?” 

“Reese, no. Why would you even ask me that? When would John even have time to cheat on me?”

I shrugged. “Do you think Brady is sleeping with other people?”

“I have no idea. I honestly don’t know him that well…just the things you tell me.”

I sat there thinking. Even after everything that happened with Brady and Jessica, I don’t think he is actually having sex with anyone else. We literally spend every night together. 

“I’m not even saying this in a judgey kind of way. I’m saying this as a friend. You need to protect yourself, Reese.”

I nodded.

After happy hour, I went home to start getting ready for my trip. I told my parents that I’m coming because I wouldn’t put it past them to take a spontaneous trip out of town the weekend I come. My mom is ecstatic and can’t wait to show me all the new shit she’s bought lately.

In the middle of packing, Brady stopped by on his way home from work. He watched me filling my suitcase up and I asked him if he wanted to get a plane ticket and come with me.

“That does sound tempting,” Brady said. “But I actually have plans.”

My eyebrows shot up. Plans? What the fuck kind of plans could he have that didn’t involve me? He obviously was trying to get rid of me for the weekend so he could do something shady.

“What kind of plans?” I asked.

“Chris and I are running a 10k and one of our friends is getting married.”


So he wanted to get rid of me so he wouldn’t have to take me to the wedding with him. 

“I can cancel everything if you want me to go. I would love to see where you’re from,” Brady added, which was so sweet.

“You don’t have to,” I said. I began throwing the contents of my bikini drawer into my suitcase. You just never know what you might get into in H-Town.

“Do you think we should get tested for STDs?” I blurted out, pronouncing STDs as “stids” like one of my old college professors did. [does stids stand for sexually transmitted infections and diseases? I’m trying to figure this out]

Brady looked taken aback. “Uh, yeah. I mean, we could if you deem it necessary. I was just tested a month or so ago though.”

“And you’re clean?” The way I said that made it sound like he was a former drug addict and Brady kind of laughed.

“Yes. All clean over here.”

He was too much of a gentleman to ask the last time I was tested, which was last year at my annual check up with my gyno. I probably need to schedule my appointment for this year soon. I sat there thinking, Brady just got tested a month ago. Why did he feel like he needed to be tested a month ago? Was it because of a scare or just routine? I hated thinking about him being with someone before me, but clearly there was someone and it was recent. And ick, did Brady have unprotected sex with whoever it was too?

I finished packing and started tidying up to keep myself busy. After our STD talk I just wasn’t in the mood to do anything. Brady asked if I was okay.

“I’m great. Just want to make sure my apartment is clean before I leave,” I said.

Brady nodded and watched me for a few more minutes then he pushed me back on my bed. Without a word, he pulled off my shorts and underwear and started eating me out. I mean, if he insisted.

Normally I just close my eyes and enjoy it while receiving oral, but I just so happened to glance down at Brady. He was watching me and we made eye contact. It was like he was trying to show me that he trusted me – despite wanting the STD tests and stuff.

We didn’t end up having sex at all, probably because of the conversation I started. Since we aren’t using condoms, he probably doesn’t carry them with him now.

Anyways, I’ll be at my parents all weekend. I will probably update how my trip went on my flight home on Sunday or on Monday. Have a good weekend y’all! 


24 thoughts on “stids.

  1. Amber says:

    I’m glad that you had this conversation. I like to see you being mature! I don’t see why you couldn’t have just asked him why he decided to be tested last month. That’s what I would’ve done since it made you so curious. But I think you’re right in that he isn’t sleeping with anyone else. When would he have the time?

      • Amber says:

        Evidently, but why? I apologize if I’m being offensive; I guess my thinking in my relationships is quite different from yours.

      • Y says:

        It’s been about a month since y’all started hooking up right? It could be that he got tested since y’all were about to be committed and he didn’t want to use condoms all the time. Especially since you told him you were on the pill.

        I think it’s pretty standard for a guy to get tested between relationships. And honestly I think it’s responsible of him to take that initiative once you guys got intimate.

  2. Is Chris bringing Carly to the wedding? Maybe she can keep an eye on Brady.

    Brady might be the type to get routine tests, but I think he was seeing someone before you. I think it’s a tricky topic to bring up. Some guys might not react well if you bring it up. I do think Brady has been pretty honest with you when you do ask questions and most likely won’t get defensive if you ask.

    I live in Houston and I feel bad you probably won’t be getting much sun this weekend. It has been pouring rain for days and isn’t supposed to stop anytime soon. Have a good time with your family!

    • Lulu says:

      Also, I’ve been thinking about starting a non-fiction blog as well. I know that I need to journal more and feel like it will keep me accountable, but I am afraid of people finding it. Is it worth making?

      • I think you should. I started it for the same reason you want to start yours. I love the advice and feedback I get from people. it definitely helps me see things about myself I wouldn’t otherwise notice. I think you should do it. as for people you know finding it, I don’t see how they would unless you told them about it. I think that’s kinda why I don’t tell my friends. I’m afraid if one person knows, everyone will know and I don’t be able to be as open and honest on here as I am.

  3. I’m so confused as to why he would choose to buy you tickets to go home for a weekend when he had a wedding to go to, unless he had already RSVP’d by the time he met you? I would def have Carly keep an eye out if she’s going with Chris.

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